Fadhil Daud’s Experience [he/him]

How to present something personal without harming/compromising yourself??? MASKS 

but it has to be REAL otherwise… what would audience get out of it? 

X masturbatory/S*F performance 

Biggest question: What is in the WELL? What drives my NEED to create/breathe/live? 

How do you define your ‘eel’ when you’ve spent a large chunk of time and effort hiding/burying/ stabbing/stomping/killing it? Great. 

Eh how come my association is so in line with the given text? Is it my life is too predictable or are  all lives the same and my life is just like your life. 

It’s okay just leap. Got to l e a p. Ready? Go. 

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                    MANIPULATED 

If my left side and right side of my body are symmetrical that’s a sign I’m manipulating my actions.  So if I PURPOSELY make my body asymmetrical, then I’m not manipulating my body. But that  one is definitely on purpose leh. Never mind, have faith and try again. Go. Just go. 

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                          P I don’t think I know what I’m doing. But that’s okay. Right? I mean I need to stop thinking with my  brain and just think more with my… soul? I need the gods inside me now. Possess me. Take me  awayyyyyyyyyyy. A secret placeeeeeee. A sweet escapeeeeeeee. Take me awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. 

This is hard. 

This is really fucking hard. 

I am never doing this again. I think. 

Ughughughughugh. 

Double birth. Let’s do it. I birth once. You birth twice. Together, we birth three times. 

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Well okay. That was interesting. 

I think I’m doing it? I honestly don’t know. So many ‘I don’t knows’ but also… that was a nice  moment, I think. I don’t know. 

I saw more of him this time. I can see him clearer each time. Is my well him? 

And to be honest, I still - (just do don’t think) 

                      P I’ll just pretend that was a nice, clean leap. I have resigned.