Sam’s Experience [she/her]

With expectations, come the risk of disappointment. Who likes being disappointed? Who likes being called a disappointment?

There is no point in forcing what/who cannot be moved or changing what/who cannot be changed. You only end up hurting yourself. Yes, you. Because -you- were the one with the expectations, -you-were the one with the standards, and as I’ve learned in a pretty hard way, you simply don’t have full control over how your external world chooses to react to -you-.

So, when people change and things happen, I let them, just as how I let myself.

Trust. Venturing into uncertainty with nothing to hold on to, I have so many questions. Maybe this was a mistake? (Maybe it’s not?) What if I’m wrong? (What if I’m right?) How do I know this wasn’t the stupidest idea I’ve ever had? (How do I know this wasn’t the best decision I’ve ever made?) The possibilities are endless and it scares me and maybe I hate it but maybe I don’t and I just want to surrender myself to all of it.

It’s messy and it’s beautiful.

I’m free.