Ayura - Infinite Love’s Experience (Participant) [she/her]

I unlocked the EXIT door. Sayonara, a gloomy space, we can’t be together. Now, where's the compass and map? 

WHAT! A blank canvas and a list of teachers ? Grrrr, this is so frustrating. Learning how to be a woman is frustrating, yet alone.

Except for the unexpected, I hate this phrase but acceptance of it is required. Should I surf on the waves and with the waves? I surfed on, like the waves in a dream. And again, the same pattern repeats, the wave doesn’t go my way.

Why must GRIEF and loss pay a visit? Will I survive or  suffocate again? WHY WHY WHY, again?

I roamed endlessly in between the currents. Half of me was seeding, splendiferously. The other of me, my branches were swaying through  the rain and thunder.

DISHEARTENED but I don’t want old patterns to repeat. Little girl, Aisha paid me a visit and whispered a secret, “Go out and take a walk. You will meet a big girl.” She’s only 4 yet she shares love. Aisha saw Ayura(me) after the Part 2, Session. Actually She was advising Ayura to continue the journey as a big girl to see the big world.

These trembling feet pathed new small steps again. These movements were curated in the past 6 sessions. Feeling afraid and ashamed, my body still continues pacifying my senses to seek help.

I kickoff by embracing  my sincerity and start inventing my own compass and map. I visioned I can still  sail and surf on this new canvas, with the help of teachers of life.  I can't control the time yet I can craft the outcome of my journey.

Why blind my vision when the law gives us safe space to invent transitions that lead to transformation that birthed goodness within one?

What is one substance I am afraid to bend/break/dispose of me? What did I choose in the first place? 

Family I choose and Love is the system I need and want to continue my journey.

Love is forever and that is what you are to me. You are my forever. 

Glaring at this empty canvas, I just realized I am no longer kidnapped of the past, simply because I unlocked the EXIT door on the 1st trial. 

Unexpectedly expecting the unexpected, I stumbled onto undisclosed Ayura in 10 sessions.

Forever Love, 

Ayura - Infinite Love.